well I'm thinking ... if I haven't managed to get over her in 5 years ... when the fuck will I, or will I EVER?!

Ye I made some progress and moved from Nirvana to marilyn Manson... I don't feel self destructive anymore, just destructive.
I'm so pathetic lol

Haha, you're not! What you say scares me though. Always on a sunday/monday I miss my ex like mad, it's fucking weird because I hardly think about her on other days, just uploaded some snaps from my camera onto my pc and came accross some pictures of us together, thought I was going to burst into fucking tears. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me today, I'm all fucked up

yea mondays shouldn't exist haha ... let's cancel them.

emonday eh

got my first exam on friday and i can hardly force myself to learn

don't worry man it's monday.

No ones brains work on mondays

the problem is, mine doesn't work on the others either... the shame, the shame

I've sat down with a coffee and some painkillers for one's headache. Only to then realize that its my 11 year old sisters birthday, to make matters worse she's invited 4 friends who have motor-mouths and I've just realized I offered to let them use some of my CD's.



And my lip has been bleeding non-stop since I stared writing this post, AND... the damn cat keeps walking across the screen so I cant see what I'm typing, I've failed to talk my mum into having a Chinese. Instead we are having Fish n'Chips AND finally Aimee-Leigh has somehow managed to write all over the sofa - Nice !

kidney pain

I woke up late as all hell this morning. I usually start work at 8am, so I have to arrive a few minutes early to get changed from my biking gear into my workclothes proper. Today I woke up at 7:45. Oh shit.

Had a mad rush to get dressed, and still got in for 8:20! Luckily it's the first time I've ever been late so I just worked the extra 20 minutes at the end of the day and everyone seemed OK.. phew.

Never mind. Pub in an hour..

Damn I'm so fucking stupid. I'm on a diet so I didn't eat any sweets for past 2 weeks then I decided to buy myself some honey cuz it has less calories than sugar (300kcal/100g instead of 390) ... bought a 900g jar and ate almost all of it with a spoon in one single day
I wanna punch myself real hard right now

Nah.. you just had one day-off. Tomorrow is a new day.

i dnt think you need a diet chavah, just look at me, i eat whatever fuck i want, sweets, candies, pies, i get at least 30 000 calories in a day, and my diet is - eat whatever your body asks for. but i dont eat meat, just imagine fat cow and you eatting a cow, and all that shit and fat which was in a cow goes to your body, same with pigs and other animals lol

its not all about being thin. Many people can eat whatever they want and not gaining weight. But its what happens on the inside of you body that counts..

bollocks, low carb diets work, usually not for women cos once a month its necessary to binge on chocolate on icecream i eat loads of meat/salad/veg, but if i eat high sugar / processed foods i get love handles. sure you can lose weight in a low-fat diet also, but you need to excercise more to burn up the excess in carbs.

take your pic of diets, but for fucks sake, if you want it to work u need stick to it like a militant asshole.

n chavah there are no real substitutes, your body will find a way to trick you back into it, u need to really discipline yourself just to eat less of the bad foods you like and fill up on good food so ur satisfied, you can become addicted to healthy foods

Blah blah, I decided to lose 10kg and nothing's gonna stop me (except myself appearantly ). I wanna look real thin. Almost anorexic. I find that super beautiful.
So I decided to cut out the truly unnecessary (sweets & carbs) and I eat only fruit, vegetables, dairy, white meat & sea stuff. And it works! I also eat lots of magnesium and iron supplements to avoid sweet cravings...
There is actually sugar substitute with almost 0 calories, but it is highly carcinogen, that's why I decided for honey.

I'm also concerned cuz no food is what it used to be, u don't even know what exactly you are eating when you think you eat an apple. Zilloins of chemicals & shit in everything. But hey, what the fuck can you do spend a fortune on "Bio" shit or starve yourself to death.