my bro and his fobias pisses me off and as well the weather - cant ride my bike. which always makes me like an unlocked bomb. i hadn't had a break in biking longer than a week since 1000 days

i had the most depressing new years ive ever had, i wanted 2 jump out my hotel balcony. ive had nothing but problems with a certain girl n she hasnt got the strength 2 help herself, im completely drained from it. took me a long time to even consider being with someone again n it turns out its even more fucked up than ever before. its like the pain from last year hasnt ended yet. i think im thru with trying to keep a relationship

really need to get my priorities straightened out..

Why?

Well midnight was nothing glamourous at all, it felt like it wasn't NYE at all... soon after midnight I met this girl I've been in love with for 4 years and she was so happy to c me and was pulling me by the hand to some club where her friends were but I didn't go cuz I hate that place and I hate most of her buddys too. Then me and my friends got into another place for that 90's rave party and it was greeeeaaaat I was lovin every second of it but I had to b careful with drinking cuz I had to work next day. Around 5am the party was still going on but I was so stressed about working next day that I decided to go home. While I was standing outside smoking a cig and waiting for a taxi this girl appeared outside for a smoke too. She was with her friends and I saw her looking in my direction quite a few times but I had to leave. Got up at 12 all fucked up and while drinking coffee and trying to get myself together I receive a msg from her inviting me over to her place for the afterparty but I couldn't go. I got to McD then at about 13:30 thinking I start at 2pm, but then I discovered it's at 4 Called a taxi to get home as fast as possible so I can have a little nap before going back again. I arrived to the house and discovered I forgot my keys and father wasn't home. So i had to wait outside the house for 25 mins til he arrived then I had a 40 min nap, woke up even more fucked up then I was before and went to work again. Had the worst day at work with the annoying boss givin me a hard time for no reason again. Got home at 22h, went to facebook and discovered that my best friend put me in a special group along with other people se doesn't know or hates. and then I died a little bit.

warrior i just know how you feel, i developed some kind of paranoia of relationships either. hate all the drama shit and panically scared of those exhausting break-up proceedures i'd rather be single for the rest of my life.

Bad times! Didn't know McD's was open New Years Day? Was shut for Christmas n New Year where I live. Sounds like your having a hard time working there, I hated it when I worked for them a few years back n got out as soon as I could! It a part time thing whilst your at college?
Sounds like you need a holiday! lol

yeh the pleasure and pain equal out in the end, problem is i havent learnt anything after the last one.

the internet is the worst thing for relationships, especially if someone doesnt talk 2 u and u find theyre talking to others online, its gotta b the most infuriating thing in the world. ppl u get 2 know online are never close to 100% who they are in reality. its just a little too comfy.

Everything has annoyed me today, including the fact I never went to my mates party due to 'I cant be arsed' syndrome. But rather thankful not going, as I hate having my picture taken I'm not very photogenic.
Also on another note... Its snowing... Argh... Means my bf cant get from A to B to see me - DAMN YOU NORFOLK COUNCIL AND YOUR SILLY GRITTERS THAT DONT GRIT...

It's funny, for me it's the other way round this year. Last year at this time I was living in Norwich and all the snow came down over the South East and London, whereas it was about 2" at the most up there and gone in about 3 days. This year there's fuck all snow here in North London and it's all up there. How unfair is that?

I wanna build a snowman and go sledging..

Well jesus this was the most fucked up NYE ever for me

Was at this AWESOME party at one of my best mates, suddenly around 02:00 some new peepz come into the house and I knew one of them.
He appearatly took some other mate with him that almost no one knew.
(Ah well , there were about 50 people in the house anyway)

Anyway...
I'm having a talk with a great girl I know for years and she suddenly has to go away because one of her girl group friends has some relationship trouble appearantly....

Happens to be this girl has problems with the new peep no one knew about who he was or whatever.
I need to go take a piss and walk past this couple complaining about shit I don't know.

Now I was half drunk at the moment, but suddenly I get some swearing words thrown at my head by the guy complaining with his girl as I'm about to enter the bathroom.

'Say what ?'
-'Move on' , said the guy

Now I ain't the type to go barking at, I ain't a fucking dog , so I go

'What seems to be the problem'

-'I said move on, who the fuck do you think you are'
-'Well , my name is Stasz and I need to go to the bathroom'

And suddenly this guy grabs me by the neck and starts to hit me in the face.
He shouldn't have done that.

Anyway after I was done the hallway looked like someone was stabbed or something, but you just don't realize you just fucked up the whole party.
Angry parents jumping out of their bed and sending everyone away.
Police and the whole deal... and before you know it you're at the police station...

At first I didn't know why the guy attacked me... guess what ?
His girlfriend was standing in some kind of imaginary line for the bathroom...
And 'I sneaked into the line' .

People have problems
This wasn't the party I imagined, shame.
Better luck next time.

so finally he knocked you out or you knocked him or both?

Well.. I kinda knocked him
Not proud of it.

yeah. at last you defended yourself

Trying to check if my travel expenses came through today but Bank of scotlands website is a cack of shite and won't work! Really can't be arsed leaving the house for a shitty mini-statement

ah well you guys have probably noticed i aint been around for about 2 and a bit weeks, nea came to greece to come be with me for the time i've been gone from bk, showed her as much of scotland as i could and she really loved the country and all of my freinds that we hung out with at the time.

though she's on her way home now, i feel a little lonley now because she's been by my side 24/7 for a while now so yeah thats whats annoyed me today, i miss her but we'll be alright.